Praise be to the LORD my Rock, who trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle. He is my loving God and my fortress, my stronghold and my deliverer, my shield, in whom I take refuge, who subdues peoples under me.
Ryan Smith
Team Leader
- 17 years Oklahoma Highway Patrol
- Former ERT Member
- LEDT Instructor
Throughout my 17 years working as a State Trooper, I have been involved in numerous incidents, including two shootings, one of those I was shot in the face. The main memory I have is my daughter, who had just turned 1, being scared of me and began screaming and crying when I tried to hold her in the hospital. I am reminded of that incident every time I look into the mirror. I struggled for a long time with depression, even though I tried to act like I was fine. I am extremely lucky to be surrounded by an amazing wife that helped me with these struggles and wouldn’t take the “I’m fine” answer. It took a long time to feel comfortable going into public or wanting to be around anyone.
It’s hard to admit our weaknesses, I didn’t want anyone to think I was weak. After praying and talking to my wife about applying to the Wellness Division, we both agreed it was a good opportunity to share my struggles and to help others. I know God had bigger plans for me the day I was shot and feel that I was spared so I could help other First Responders who are struggling. I believe his calling was to be part of the Oklahoma First Responder Wellness Division.
Last Modified on
Jan 08, 2025
